Rachel’s poem: ‘A woman’s journey’

In this blog, Rachel shares a reflective poem she wrote about her experiences as a woman, her gynae health and her recent diagnosis of a rare gynae cancer, vaginal non-Hodgkin's lymphoma.

When I was 10 they said  
You can’t be 10! You’ve got huge breasts!  
But I was …  
  
When I was 11 they said  
You can’t be on your period you’re just a kid  
But I was…  
  
When I was 12 they said  
No one’s acne can be that bad, just wash your face!  
But it was…  
  
When I was 18 they said  
But you can’t be a virgin, you’re a student!  
So they forced their way in anyway  
  
When I was 19 they said you must be a drug addict, periods don’t make you sweat and pass out  
So I got kicked off the train  
  
When I was 20 they said  
You’re just a bit tense… relax!  
Then they surgically removed my imperforate hymen  
  
When I was 30 they said 
Don’t be silly, hormones can’t make you suicidal!  
But they can…  
 
When I was 35 they said  
Coils are no big deal… everyone has them these days  
Then hospitalised me for a severe infection  
  
When I was 36 they said, just take some paracetamol it’s not endometriosis  
But it was  
  
When I was 37 they said your thyroid is fine … you’re just stressed and fat  
Then they gave me the levothyroxine  
  
When I was 38 they said  
Your fertility is fine, you just need to do it more  
And I lost 3 babies  

 

Now I’m 40 and they said stop being dramatic, it can’t be cancer  
… and it is

 

If I make it to 45… will they listen? 

 

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